if i make it until college without being hospitalized it will be a ~~miracle~~ seriously all i need is one fucking good day. just one. 

i really just need someone to remove the sharp objects from my bedroom like um right now plz&thku

i’m so so so so so sorry. 

that all i do is talk about myself. 

that i can’t just fucking pull myself out of this. 

that i’m so narcissistic and so self-loathing. 

that i put it all on you. 

i just can’t deal with this sort of consequence right now.  

it’s like i think it’s a straight line. a hair. one end, and another. but zoomzoomzoom and i realize it’s so damaged, so manipulated and so undernourished, that it’s split into a thousand ends, complicated and insurmountable. 

i want to kiss in front of the unicorn tapestry at the cloisters. 

oo uniquorn.